Beginning to feel like I post more here than I talk to my therapist.

Together almost 28yrs ex wants a divorce after an amazing year long glow up on her part. In hindsight, completely telegraphing her moves. I'm destroyed. Get gaslighted about not having ambition, not being healthy and thin like her, I'm too whatever. Guys my profession isn't fancy but I'm at the top of the game in it and have earned national recognition and ironically just got bumped to well over 100k a yr. Solid but not "rich". I of course rollover on everything hoping this will change and being a ppl pleaser.

Fast forward 18mo we are now, I stupidly thought, friends with history at her request(she tells me lets not throw away history and she still cares about me but doesn't love) Travel with our adult son together, check on each other a few times a week with the occasional outing. Suddenly she goes no contact and finally only gives me "I've moved on". As I stated before, enter upgrade boyfriend representing those qualities I'm not. Fit with money. We have only been divorced 4mo and someone is sleeping with my ex in a house I still co-own.

Spent last two snd half weeks gutted and honestly contemplating ending it. Reached out for help and turned it around. I demand the house is sold or I'm bought out. Get told I'm overreacting and being immature about her "moving on". No bitch you found a way to destroy my mental and physical self worth twice because I was still in love the first time and desperate for support the second. Getting left twice as a spouse first and than "close" friend is a special kind of pain. I've realized I can't put myself in a position to be hurt again, but I'm somehow the asshole. It will be a miracle if I ever trust a woman again.