So, I have been doing great. Feeling like Xmas has been a success. Then, while celebrating with family, I get a text from the STBXW. She is sending money as a gift for the kids. Thats great. She didnt help with Xmas except for stuff we bought and stored before thos all went down.

She ends it with a text telling me that she still loves me and always will. That was just a gut punch. My mood just dropped. Seeing that is like a knife in my chest. I still do and always will deep down, but I absolutely despise what she did to our relationship and kids. And I CANT be hurt again and again anymore. Thats why I filed in the first place.

Dammit, that just killed my vibe. Im hoping I can forget about it by just going to bed.

On a lighter note, Merry Xmas or happy holiday, whatever you celebrate!