total fucking rant enjoy:

back ground: recently called the wife out on some bull shit. Texting other guys. "Emotional affair" she has done this before. this time with an ex which is what brought me here. Been digging through the side bar, putting up some posts and getting some great feedback. Putting the work in.

Last weekend shit hit the fan and I'll called my wife out on some shit specify her shitty boundaries and unacceptable communications with other guys. She denied/cried. I held my ground. went well she has become passive and sweet. We had sex and we both actually liked it. But I know that this my window start unfucking all the shit I was fucking up from day one. I need to give her boundaries she obviously doesn't fucking have any I need to establish some semblance of frame. and in general I just need to stop being such a bitch. So today i said fuck it and stoped wearing my ring. I took her to lunch today. She didn't say shit about it. But she was very affectionate and sweet. She didn't ask why I wasn't wearing my ring because she already knows the answer. I don't give a fuck. she has ran this marriage off the tracks a half a dozen times. She gets that I'm no longer willing to put in more effort and shit than she does. I'm not trying to be all Rambo and shit. I do care about her and nucking my marriage isn't the goal but it's always an option.if I stay it's on my terms. Secondly I don't give a fuck about spinning plates. I feel no urgency to strive for abundance mentality. Fuck it what's so bad about being alone? I'm not girl I don't need to branch swing. All i need to do is work, lift and be awesome

So I know the old heads are going to call me drunken monkey boy with a fist full of dynamite. And ya I'll probability blow my dick off. But hay that's par for the course when you live in I don't fucking care land