I need some input and opinions on this situation here. I know I fucked up but need to understand how bad this was and how it may have effected my relationship with my 2 year LTR.

NYE at a bar. Was drunk and overtly flirting with other girls in front of my Ltr. She has been great and I really have no need to overtly instill this type of dread-not needed at this point in our relationship as she is amazing and meets my needs consistently. I don’t remember this happening but I told a woman in front of my ltr that she was hot as fuck. Obviously I hurt my gf. Earlier in the night I told a friend of my gf and my gf as they were together they were the most beautiful girls in the bar and I was putting my hand on my gfs friends lower back (other girl was really into it and eating up the attention I was giving her). This situation I remember.

She was obviously hurt by my actions (both instances) and cried.

My damage control next day: told her I don’t remember speaking to the other girl towards the end of the night. I also told her not to worry about it, i was just playing around and having fun. I apologized for hurting her. I told her I am aware I have to work on my drinking issues (every time I lose frame it’s due to alcohol) and owned up to the situation.

She asks what would have happened if she wasn’t there. I tell her I love her so much and wouldn’t put myself in that situation again or without her. I let her know I value her and our relationship more than any dumb hoe and alcohol. (Which is all true, I care deeply for this girl and I am distraught that I may have sabotaged or jeopardized our relationship.) Spent the rest of he day cuddling and comforting. We did have sex as usual and she re-assured everything was okay and forgave me for this.

Obviously I have work to do. I feel I may have broken her trust. Looking for insight here or if I am making this a bigger deal than it should be. Thanks.