Been unplugging and applying concepts for 6 months now and have seen great improvements in my life.
I'm lifting (miles away from where I want to be). SMV is easily at an all time high. Stopped caring as much (still care and hamster occasionally) I'm busy, I don't like sitting around the house. Getting many IOIs. Handling my responsibilities. Reading daily. New job, already received raise.
Sex is once a month. 90% rejection rate.
Wife showing more interest in me, constant banter, she's flirty and instigates play fights with me often but when I initiate during she is quick to give me a hard no. I grab her ass in public, smack her ass, say and do what I want without her objection until I try to initiate.
I've been steady dread mode 5, she also accuses me or says something to the fact that she thinks I'm cheating. I've AA'd them all, the last one I said "are you doing something that would make me want to cheat on you?" She said "that's the thing, I've done nothing!". Always wondering what I'm up to.
My wife is a masculine minded woman and very boastful, works in a mans field and has high local status. She tries to talk shit about me, small penis jokes, you're not good at this, I'm better than you at this, etc. I AA them as they've never bothered me, but I'm thinking this is more than a shit test, should I be nuking these? Had an issue recently where she asked me to go get the kids swimsuits out of the car, we're both shoeless. I told her go get my shoes and I will. She says no, tells me to do it myself and I calmly refuse. She proceeds to tell the kids "we aren't going swimming because daddy won't get your suits". I walk over to her and say "Never do that again". She says "if you aren't going to be nice neither will I." I stared at her for a minute solid then walked away.
Also mad because I didn't buy anything for HER, did buy tickets to a show for us for our anniversary. And has used this as an excuse for no sex. To which I chuckle and slap her ass.
I think she's got insecurity issues and is trying to bring me down to keep/establish herself above me. Also complains that I don't ever compliment her, which is true. There's nothing to reward by complimenting.
We are also in the process of moving, we have both taken new jobs, where I'm now 70% of the income from previously 50/50.
What I don't understand is the sexual denial, maybe I'm not accepting the fact that I'm just not high enough SMV.
Based on rereading my post I believe there may be something I'm not owning, "she" count too high, kick me in the nuts and tell me where I'm being a retard.