27m 5'9" 220lbs 30%BF 5x5 lifts
Sorry couldnt recall the other required stats. First off my punctuation sucks so I'm not gonna go back and fix those as long as my words are used properly I think the message will get across fine.
Just wanna say thanks for those who responded to my first post on here. I knew I would get alot of painful truths but it was worth it. I'd be lying if I said I'm magically red pilled like you all but I'm thankful for the side bar and resources.
Ive been reading in my spare time whenever I can NMMNG and its a great read and big wake up call to who i was. Id be lying if i said i wasnt still devastated by my wife leaving me for another man but you know after reading this I do take ownership for my fuck ups and I see now that I was losing my manhood and sense of identity to be a "good guy" I am very guilty of submitting and just trying too hard to avoid conflict and i cause more lies than truths in order to please my wife.
I wish I would have found you guys sooner or else I'd still be married. I cant change whats now but definitely own up to what i did wrong and move forward.
As of lately when my wife does message me about things regarding the divorce or our kids I am more honest and speak my mind. Considering shes already screwing another guy and is jobless she asked me to take the kids overnight since I'm still at home so it could be more stable so I said fine. But also in relation to her being jobless she also asked if I could print her papers out needed for this job and maybe i should have to help her out being my kids mom but i had to be honest and say I'm sorry I cant do that anymore any extra help im giving you is just making me a doormat. She didnt take it too kindly but I said its the truth . shes gone through many jobs and I would always print things scan them and fax them so she thought this time would be no different. Also she got very heated with me when i typed a formal document to have her sign saying she agrees to let me take the kids in so I could have it in writing and she started saying I hate you and I'm trying to take the kids away and blew up and again just said im sorry you hate me I cant change or fix how you feel but I dont have hate for you and wish you well and ended the conversation. I hope this kind of honesty is the at least the direction i need to be in?
It still sucks all in all but through this experience I am learning I am in control of my own choices and not everyone may like them but I cant run back and cowar my choices. I'll start trying to get the other books as well and do some more self discovery. Thanks