Some information about me: I'm 19 and in my 2nd year of college. Honestly college has not been a great experience for me. I'm not really close to anyone. I've been humiliated twice in one year and this has made me feel distrustful of most people. About 5 months ago, I discovered mgtow and the red pill. Thanks to the lockdown and my vulnerable state, I was drawn to it. I found most of the posts in r/mgtow fascinating and blindly followed it. With all the free time I had, I spent many hours watching mgtow content on YouTube and browsed a few sites.

I've noticed that most of the users on that sub are either older divorced men and a shocking number of young guys like me. For a young, impressionable guy it is quite easy to go down this path. It's been growing rapidly in the past few years which is extremely alarming

I left it just a few weeks ago. I somehow managed to come to my senses and question everything these guys said. They keep saying "trust no woman, AWALT" which just seemed ridiculous to me. How can half the population even behave the same way? Just like men, every woman has an individual personality. There are shitty men as well as shitty women.

The sad thing is that I'm not alone. There are so many young men falling into this trap and becoming radicalised. If you know any men that show signs of being mgtow or red pill please try to talk them out of it. It's incredibly damaging and did absolutely no good for me. A few days ago I went through my comment and post history and felt disgusted. I deleted everything and decided to share my story here.

Regarding my mental health, is there anything I can do about it by myself? There isn't a good therapist where I live. I have anxiety issues and I constantly worry about so many things. I don't want to go down this dark path ever again. I'm better than I was five months ago, but I fear that I might go down this dark path again.