My wife is leaving tomorrow morning to visit a friend. When she returns i will have left and she will be served the divorce papers. I’m having huge anxiety, guilt, fear, doubt and ambivalence. Ive been over and over it, there is no other way unless I want to deal with unpredictable episodes of abuse, horrible holidays and family vacations. Its either divorce or death of a thousand nicks.

While my resolve is strong, i feel horrible about the upcoming disruption. Normal?