My background:

Born, Raised and Married (arranged marriage-Never got to know her character and values before marriage) in India. Moved to States and Me 50yo (Sole Breadwinner),my wife and one 20yo daughter became US Citizens 5 years back. Lot of Red flags right from Marriage. In 2020, mywife went to oversee my father's health in his death bed and didn't even bother to even visit. Abandoned me and currently living in India. Daughter studying in a different country and stopped talking to me in the last 1 year. Understood that my wife is a Narc very recently. Her family is entirely Narc. Her Brother is also separated from his wife for more than 6 years now. Divorce is hard due to us living in different countries. Live in Texas

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Am looking for life options.

  1. Is it advisable for live-in relationships? (I am there for the partner and I expect the same from the partner)
  2. Adopt a child
  3. Die alone - Not sure where to settle down for this in the future....My father had Parkinson's in the last few months of his life and even though I didn't have travel options during Covid, I had hired people and also my friends to take care of him till he died and be on top of his wellbeing. But in my case, there is no one to even check.

All suggestions welcome and appreciated. Thanks a lot.

Edit 4/12/2023:

My wife gave a few indications that she want to unite back, but I said that I have not changed and the same person as I was earlier. But I have to think a lot. She gave false police complaint back in india and I am tired from Constant lies, smear campaigns, false accusations, backstabbing, turning child against me etc., She reminded me that it is already 2+ years and I said, so what?

Agree with all of you that all of us die alone. I would prefer an instant death anytime over going through needing someone to support me in my later years. Moreover, I do not have anyone to consider and represent my best interests if I lose my memory due to Parkinson's etc.,