As I'm sure with most people's story, it's entirely too long for anyone to want to read it here, I'll give the basics of where I'm at right now.

My wife and I have been married 25 years, she started down the road of depression during COVID.

Apparently over a year's period of time I yelled and screamed at my wife, calling her and fing b**ch 3 times. It took her a year to bring this up. This is completely out of my character and I've never done that in 25 years.

We went to a church counselor at her request. I was on two different medications from a serious surgery at long recovery. The therapist jumped right to narcissistic personality disorder.

I did some research that same day on the medications I was given and found that while rare it was possible that they can cause amnesiac episodes. I have absolutely no memory of the three occasions of which I lost my temper. She admitted that I have never laid a hand on her or threatened her.

I paid for two psychologists to give me psychological evaluations. Both of these came back with complex PTSD from childhood trauma and abuse. They both said there is absolutely no way that I was a narcissist and that the counselor did not have the legal right to diagnose me as such.

Long story short, My wife barely talks to me at all at this point she did say she does not want to get divorced, my son (18) and I are living in a small house we rent. My wife and two daughters (22, & 20) are living in our family home. This has been going on for almost 2 years now. We are both going to psychologists for therapy. She will not even return texts about financial or any family matters.

I still love my wife, I have no interest in divorce but I feel so stuck as this seems open ended. Neither of us have been unfaithful.

I don't know how long time support to wait for her to talk to me... It's extremely frustrating and feels so wrong.

I have never heard of anyone in a similar situation.