Got out of a 7 year marriage in Feb. After 3 years, I started using alcohol at night to cope. It got worse over the years, and it was at it's worst over the last year. I was drinking a half liter of vodka every other night for pretty much the whole year.

Since the divorce was finized, my drinking has gone back to normal. I've only had a few nights in the last 4 months.

But I did get drunk last night, and I'm hungover and called in sick today. I feel guilty. The urge is still there from time to time.

It helps to stay busy with my 6yo daughter. I've been more than tripling my efforts to raise her with high levels of engagement. I'm dealing with a lot of regret for lost time with her, and so I find myself sacrificing completely.

I have to develop the skill to be able to take care of my own needs when she's with me. I've had her for 6 straight days, and when yesterday (my first day without her) rolled around, I was at just a shred of sanity.

After drinking last night and recouperating right now, I'm going to put the train back on the tracks.