It's finally here. I've made it. I was married July 2015, and it ended yesterday. 6 and a half years. About 3 years ago, I had the divorce papers in hand, but I was guilted into staying. It feels like my life has been on pause since then. Ive been so mentally withdrawn. I'm starting to feel what it's like to be myself again.

I have to clean up so much in my life, and I know I can do it. I can do it because I am finally in control of my life again. I'm trying very hard to not say bad things and get negative.

I will stay positive and stay in the moment. My finances? I have the control now. I'm responsible for what is purchased again. I will be able to save money again and plan for the future. I won't have to make a plea to go out and start something new. I won't have to explain myself to anyone. I have to end it like this.