I made a post about my story about two months ago. Don’t really know how to attach that story here but long story short my wife wanted a break because this became a “routine” she started seeing a guy about two weeks after she moved out I begged for one month while I kept finding out she kept seeing him I swallowed my pride and my dignity (I regret it now making my self look weak) but about 4 weeks ago or less she started coming back and trying to get back at the time I wanted too but I didn’t want toget hurt all over again I was already coming out the dark place I was in.I feel she was in a dark place too and lost for the stuff she was doing going out drinking and not controlling her self that’s not her. But she came over with the kids on a Friday and basically told me she wanted to try this again I told her that we couldn’t just start dating again a lot of stuff happen that has to be forgotten and truthfully forgive. I guess she took it the wrong way and she went out for a drink to her cousins house and it got toxic all over again..That night something switched in me, I stopped caring I went out finally started talking to other women after all this. She found out she got mad, now she’s been crying and begging me to give it another chance , deep down I really want too but is like a wall that my mind put to protect my self again . Now I feel guilty and bad I feel bad for my kids and for her ,seeing her hurt like that. I know the feeling she’s going through and I hate that she’s going through that. I don’t like seeing people hurt, and I don’t know what to do, should I give us a 2nd chance to have a family again,?or wait until we both heal and then maybe try it again.