In may, my wife decided she needed a break, right after the break she started meeting up with a guy. They did what they did, yes it hurt felt betrayed but I tried to move on. I was stuck in a dark place for about 2 months. I tried to move on and she tried to come back begging for forgiveness crying. My pride didn’t let me at that time I needed time. I had already started to move on and talk to other women when she decided to try to get me back. One day she came back home crying got on her knees begging me to take her back. I was prideful and didn’t take her back in. Even though I wanted too. At that time my bestfriend was going through a seperation and I went out drink with him to help him out since I had just went through the same thing. A month passed. Come to find out my ex and him are seeing each other now. At first I was mad, as a guy that grew up and was thought to handle disrespect from another man in a violence way. (Not saying I’m proud of that is just the way I was raised) I swallowed a lot and acted like I let it go. But these last 3 months is been building up, alot of hate and anger, then depression hits again. I feel embarrassed, I feel weak for not handling it. He posted on her on his Facebook and my whole family seen it.everything I thought I passed came back, dark thoughts deep depression, thoughts of leaving, I don’t like claiming I’m a good person. But I never have done bad to anybody for me to deserve this. If there is a god why put me through this? I was good to her. I was good to him. And they get to be happy? While I got the shit end of the stick. Now I’m only living for my kids. I’m good with females, but when they start to get too close i push them away. Idk what it is but I hope I get answers or help. I only come here because I don’t like talking about it with family or friends .