I don't want my kids to have separate homes, it's not fair to them. They don't have a safe sense of "home". Fuck man, women can just walk away, Scott fucking free while men have to step the fuck up when shit gets hard. WE have to be the fucking strong ones for them. I'm in the position where I have to move 3 hrs from my wife for work, she is unemployed staying with a friend. I will have the kids all week for school because the schools are better, her and I both agreed this. Now, my kids, if they want to see their mom or if she wants to see them, have to ride in a car 6 hours every weekend for her to spend a day and a half with them. I didn't want this shit to begin with. And now my kids have to suffer???? I'm tired of being the only one willing to work on shit based on the fact that we both made a commitment. I WANT my kids to have a great relationship with their mom, I want them to have a great relationship with me too. I don't want my kids to go to their friends house and see their happily married parents and wonder why they can't have that. I don't want my kids to view commitments as something you can simply walk away from because you don't want to deal with shit anymore. What about the space I need, I'm always the one stepping up when things get tough, always. I need a break... now, I'm mostly responsible for the remainder of homeschooling, I'm responsible for all of the moving and expenses, I'm responsible for working to put food on the table, I'm the one that's trying to work on myself too, but I have to step up and do everything else at the same time. Fucking women have the choice to walk the fuck away and finally, after moving the fuck out decide to try to find happiness. Not while they are married, not while they have to do literally everything else... they move out, get space, and decide... hey, this is nice. I'm going to keep fucking doing this, yeah, it sucks, but the kids will EVENTUALLY be okay.... fuck man!!! They don't HAVE to be put through this if both of us manned the fuck up and tried to be happy instead of just complaining about how we aren't. That's my rant, I wanted to vent, but I don't really have anyone to vent to. I know I'll be fine, I know I can handle it, but it shouldn't be like that. I still love her, I still want her to be happy, even if I'm not in that happy, but I know it could be there. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. Fuck.