It’s been about a year and a month since my ex blindsided me with a separation and discarded me. Long story short, she fell out of love with my for over a year but decided to stay until it was convenient for her to leave.

The situation was especially difficult because all the issues she talked about were things I showed her through my own actions could be (and were) fixed. But all I would get is “I don’t want to be with you”. Despite us having a toddler together, being financially reliant on having a combined income, she still wanted to separate. And that’s emotionally a killer when you think someone loved you all that time.

We are cordial, doing what’s best for our daughter. She has her more than I do because of the distance between where I live and she does, and I’m sacrificing my time simply for my daughter to have as much stability as she can.

Despite me resenting my ex for the way she did what she did, and lying to me, I’m still in love with her. And it’s messing me up. I miss her everyday. Doesn’t matter what I do. I’m stuck on her and it’s stopping me from moving on with my life. I almost wish she cheated or something so it would be easier to hate her.