I’m currently on my first vacation with kids since being separated. Strange feeling. They haven’t been told yet so just think their Mom is busy with work. We’re still living together. Just the drive was weird not having my wife next to me to chat or put on music etc. Of course a bunch of songs came on about breakups! Haha

Anyway, it was a little rough at first. I had a mini panic attack when we first got here because I just felt overwhelmed. This is an annual vacation we’ve done as a family for about 5 years.

I’ve had a fun first day with my boys. Just texted her once to say we got here safely.

Emotions are still up and down and I keep having guilt about not seeing signs and doing some things in the past. But I am realizing it doesn’t feel too different and that gives me hope for the future that the kids will adapt and we can still have a lot of fun together.