I initiated divorce and we are seperated for about 6 months now. We have had sex multiple times since then.

We were married for 14 years and have two your boys. I decided to get a divorce because I suffered years of mental abuse and manipulation from her, with a few physical abuse times too. She is codependant on me and I pay for almost everything.

Problem is, I am now having a bunch of second thoughts. She is super hot and gives amazing sex.

I am starting to feel heavily jealous for if she may have a relationship and become intimate with a new guy. Yes tell me I'm stupid for that. I now fear I will regret it if the divorce carries on and she meets someone else.

What the fuck is wrong with me and what should I do?