I woke up today with the realization that every with single one of my LVM exes, I had experienced a moment where my body physically rejected them very early on. For me, this manifested in the way I cried. I would cry because of the way they were treating me: not paying attention to me, not addressing my concerns - in other words, my body KNEW that I was being devalued, and it was screaming at me to open my eyes to the reality. Even if things seemed okay on a surface level, it was the signal that something had shifted in the relationship. My god it is so clear to me now. And yet, time and time again, I ignored such concerns, attributing them to my "insecurity," and journaling in an attempt to rationalize their actions (this is another red flag for me - the moment a guy enters my writing in anything less than an extremely positive light - I'm being played).

Ladies, sometimes it's not very apparent that we are crying over a person. Sometimes, we just have a bad feeling. The feeling that something in your world has changed. You may know, without knowing why. That is intuition. Trust it like your life depends on it, because it does.