First: Thank you /u/trainingthebrain and /u/stonepimpletilists. You allowed me to puke and spoke to me with truth. Moved here to MRP sub from /askMRP.

Second: I'm upset and unsure how to handle this. How would you handle this? My wife told me in middle of conversation while I'm on travel that she wants to have an MMF threesome. The thought makes me wretch. I was classic bluepill - she was my first, I'm the next guy to get a turn. But really, the bottom line is I'll never share her with another man intentionally. Conversation went like this:
Me: I had an amazing steak today. Mouthgasm in front of coworkers. Her: How many? Who's there? I'm thinking of MMF fantasy with you in it. Me: Yuck. Husband does not share. Her: I know, your fantasy is FFM, I know, but this is my fantasy, you don't get a say. Me: Just for that, I'm eating the piece I saved for you. Her: Please do, I don't want to eat three day old steak anyhow. You're coming now btw, my mind moves fast. LOL Me: <I stay silent, practicing STFU> Her: 45 minutes later. Wow, R u relaly mad at me? Me: <after I calm down and realize she's just a woman>I'm not angry. Not exactly popping a boner

Blue pill me would have gone into detail about how I'm jealous of all the guys she's fucked before me, and how I hate the thought of sharing her, and no, I wouldn't want two women because I wouldn't want to wound her in that way, and finally, you need to not only lay down your expectations, but nip this fantasy in her mind in the bud so she doesn't think about it anymore. Yes, Blue pill hamster still exists in my head, I'm just preventing the little bastard from acting right now.

Red Pill me says, you said your peace and laid down your expectation. You've lowered your attractiveness in her eyes, and if she really wants to go find two dicks to fuck instead of yours, she will. You can't control her fantasies. So let this go and STFU. Lift and improve yourself.

Context: I've been self improving for the last year, lifting, reading, and pursuing the red pill journey without realizing it. Sex has been on a major uptick, 4+ times a week, way more variety and enjoyment. My strength and restraint has shown more positive results in terms of her showing affection and attraction to me in the last two weeks than in the entire last year. Last week, I found MRP, and my entire perspective changed. Otherwise known as a paradigm shift. My eyes hurt and I'm pretty sure I'm butthurt and bleeding from my anus. But I need it. I'm reading NMMNG right now (~25% done).

The simple act of writing this post was cathartic. I'm the prize. I want her, but I cannot control her. I can only control myself. Lead, and fuck her brains out when you get home.