Greetings and well wishes to everybody!
I'm a 19 year old kid whose father didn't provide any man advice or guided me as I grew up. He doesn't come home but he and my mother are still married and they have no qualms, he just lives in our farm beside our house, so growing up I was left to my sister and mother. I am accustomed to being with girls and they make around 95% of my friendships. Also I used to be a shut-in, I have feminine mannerisms, I was the weird kid that isolates himself all the time in high school.
I used to blame my father and for growing up with only women for me acting like a gay person. I absolutely do not mean any offense to the LGBTQ+ community. My problem is that, I realized I'm an outgoing person and that stereotypes of the jock or geek shouldn't really be used irl to classify people. We can be geeky but still invest in fitness. I also realized that I want to date a girl and that I identify as heterosexual, but I do not know stuff that boys regularly know and practice like men's fashion, the type of perfume one should use, and how to act. It's not that I just want to conform to society's standards, but I think we can all agree that every man should know how to present himself and act properly.