Stats weigth, 100kg 1.87, got new work stopped.going to the gym.

i know should keep lifting, once i stopped probably the E2 shot up and the T went down again, just need a place to vent, been a insecure bitch with the wife this whole week, going to the gym next week again.

Any of You recommend some beginner meditation books, i need something to calm down the emotional mess, while My T levels go up in the gym.