Hi everybody, I'm an AFC that is still learning pick-up, but I'm more and more discouraged... Today was my third session, and I decided to push it further with girls.

I was not in a good mood today, and I knew I should not have gone hit on random girls in the street. I feel like shit right now, it totally wrecked my confidence.

As I said, I was not in a good mood today, I was sick all the week, and I was a little bit tired, but I still decided to go out to the street to struggle against my anxiety. Because I don't want to have any excuse.

I first went to a place full of tourists, so it was hard to talk to girls that don't understand my language (and they did not speak english...). I talked to some girls, but I was still scared before the approach. I could not stay more than 10seconds talking to them so I decided to go to another spot.

I arrived at this second spot, and I was still panicked. I talked to some girls and I still could not speak for more than 30s because I was so scared and I had to leave. I think I dismissed myself at some time, but on the other hand, I had not cue that the girl was interested.

So, I decided that from now, I would stay and talk as long as I can to the girls, which I did. But, I don't know if it's because I was in a bad mood today, but I was not enjoying at all, the girls where not friendly at all, thoughts like "she is obviously bothered by you" were popping in my head all the time. I was mad at me, and I almost cried after I finish to talk to some girl. It was too much for me, and I felt like a total loser, incapable of having a nice, fun, and playful conversation with a woman. I mean, I approached at least 20 girls today, and not a single one showed any sign of interest (whereas last week, I had some - I'm pretty good at reading body language btw). I can't bear that look girls have, that look meaning "who are you creeper?". I failed like a crap.

The last set I opened was the worst. I approached those 2 girls (not even beautiful...) saying "hi girls!". They said "again?". I said "What again? Have you been hit on thousand times today?". They said "Somebody has already hit on us earlier". I said some confident bullshit and they laugh, but they were fooling me, I mean, they were obvisously lying to me. I said "where are you from ?". One said from one place, and the other said from another place. I teased them and said "obviously one of you is lying, that must be you!". During all the interaction, they were almost turning their backs to me. At some point, one got a phone call, and I asked the other "What's your name?". She said "No". I was pissed, so I told her " "no" ? What kind of name is that?". Then I was so pissed that I told them "good bye girls" and left. Then I got home, and I feel like a crap now. I'm really depressed.

I start wondering if pick-up is for me. This is too much energy for me, I always have a panick attack each time I speak to a new girl, and it doesn't get better with time. Since I started pick-up, I opened like 50 sets. And I'm still shaking and trembling every fucking time. Sometimes, I think I'll die as a virgin, and I doubt I'll kiss a girl one day.

Also, the more I talk to women, the more I hate them.

Tomorrow, I'll go back to the field. I know I will crash again.

I'm sorry seddit if I'm too negative, but I'm really upset right now because I feel like I make no progress and because those bitches have ruined the few confidence I had.

Thank you for reading, any piece of advice is appreciated.

EDIT: Thank you very much guys, your support is really helping me!