I've started with motivation, but after 2 months of consistent gaming (doing 2-3 approaches per day) I only faced rejections and even some hostility from white women I approached.

Comparing myself to other daygamers who are mostly white lads who got numbers make me doubt if there is some racism is involved or that just my game is not on par with them.

The problem with me is that I barely have the chance to practise since most women I try to stop keep walking straight and ignoring me. I don't want to look as a harasser so I never chase them. While on the other hand I saw the white guys doing approaches, she is stopping and smiling and having long conversation.

As being mixed race (white father, asian mother), born and raised in a white majority country I often being perceived as south asian while I realise that brown men have the worst reputation (poor, dirty, smelly, no manners).

It is really frustrating, depressed of all the rejections and making me wishing I had a white skin color.

Every time when I keep getting rejections, especially the brutal ones where she just waves her hand signing to 'fuck off' it brings up my negative thoughts, frustration about my skin color, the fact that I never got a date and that I'm having the lowest status.