So I'm about a year into things.. I've read and am re-reading the sidebar materiel to be able to fully integrate it, but I feel that I've turned a corner , I'm no longer angry or butthurt with the rejections.. in fact I have almost no desire to even initiate anymore. The summer has been once long bout of random sickness or just plain falling asleep for her .

The General path during the week has been I'm out of the house by 6 am to get to work , do my 8 hours , pick up the toddler from daycare. come home, make/eat/clean up from dinner get kids in bed, and in bed by hopefully 10 to get a decent amount of sleep. We really only see each other for about 2 hours a day she usually gets home between 7:30 and 8. has dinner , and is on her phone facebooking / playing games/ looking for engagement rings , then passes out on the couch. I wake her to put her in bed. and that's it.. Rinse and repeat X5

At this point im pretty I guess meh about what she says and does. I don't really ask her for anything , anything that I see that needs to be done, I do , tired of arguing over who does what.

The random ailments I hear every day are all getting the same responses now either " well try to get better for tomorrow" or " you should go see a Dr. about that". and that's it pretty much , back to the phone and the scroll . there have been no Dr's appts to check out the various ailments , or its hamster'd away with the weather/heat/humidity/whatever causing the issue.

I would assume its all LMR , but its just so normal now , that even though im not even initiating anymore I still hear it every night within 20 mins of getting home its *.ache and I just deadpan the normal reply and that's all

On the rare nights with no aches or illness, her body language doesn't show accepting of initiations.. covered , closed up , hindering any access to her body. ( this is a change in the past 6 months )

over the past month its been several times " I think im pregnant" which I then reply well we haven't had sex in 40 days.. I don't think that's possible , hinting that its not mine pisses her off, and I get called an asshole (+points?)

This month has been a very odd Period for her ( monitored with Clue app) she says it came 3 days early and lasted 15 days ( even though we did have sex on my birthday , no blood on me or the bed) dunno if this is all a ruse or not , but im taking her word for it ( not rooting through the trash for tampon wrappers)

so I don't know , cant tell whats going on and really not at the point where I really give a fuck about what she's doing , and I just do what I do