I have not shared my story, and honestly it would be the length of a long winded novel. DM if you want to get into it. What we had was amazing, or so I thought. We were absolutely best friends, a force to be reconned with. Married 15+ yrs. Then she slowly started to change and I knew something was up. Found out it was a Ea/Pa. Choice after choice and lie after lie were made and told. When I found out I was shattered to my core. I vowed to try and work on it through theraoy, medication, time, but in the end could not see past it all. We are in the process of divorce after over 1.5 yrs of trying and she continues to be this person I didn't marry. She has proven herself time and time again to not be a safe partner and I am mourning the loss of everything I thought I had/knew. With this mourning comes extreme heartache that I would not wish on my worst enemy. I am stuck missing her, wishing to wake up from the longest nightmare ever. At the same time knowing I will be better off. It is gutwrenching to have your person, your everything, your dreams be ripped away. I'm just stuck in pain.