Not to make any excuses here but I've been off my game for about 2 weeks. I've had some amazing days a little while ago and while I realize that I made it all happen, that I was the one who baked the cake and ate it too, I feel socially exhausted now.

I remember reading that building and maintaining relationships is like tending to a garden. I'm beginning to see why now. I'm beginning to see why the most well-connected people also feel a sense of stress and importance as well. I actually feel physically and mentally fatigued when making the effort to approach, to lead, and to close, much like a dancer would.

I'm sure its just a matter of habit-making and habit-breaking, but god damn, I might need to buy a seperate notebook just to keep track of all the relations I'm running. I'm still bound for success out here but the road is wearing me down.