It's really rough for me. I'm a german guy backpacking in Australia at the moment. I'm 25, never had a girlfriend, had sex like 5 times with random girls that I didn't really find any attractive.

At the moment, I am constantly surrounded by girls, lot of them being pretty, because that's how backpacker hostels work. The problem is, I feel like girls don't even see me as a guy who has a fucking penis. In this environment, they just want to fuck with the hottest guy around, because they don't care at all and they know they come and go. And I'm never that guy. I am ugly. I really am. I'm not ugly in the sense that I look unkempt, or out of shape, or like a shapeless nerd. It's just that it feels like no fucking girl is attracted to me physically, ever. I am in shape. I'm tan. I'm confident. I talk to everyone, I'm the most popular guy in the hostel, and generally I'm the guy who talks to all the girls. A lot of people at the hostel call me Hitch because they see me talking with new girls having a good time all day. But the fact remains. Whenever another guy comes and sits at the table, even if we're still having fun, he becomes the man.

My face is shit. I have not so good skin, although nothing crazy, my nose is long and with a large tip and bad. I have no chin. I have a weak ass jaw, although it's more bcs of my chin. I have big ass ears. I look like a rat. Like shit.

If I was half as good looking as most of these guys, I'd really be hitch. I'm extremely good at getting a girl interested and seducing. Just the looks hold me back so much. I'm considering saving up a ton of money and have a fuckload of facial plastic surgery. I can't take it anymore. The problem is it's gonna take so long to save up I will kill lyself before that.

I need to find a way to stop thinking about girls, until I reach that goal. Help me guys I can't do this no more.