When we first started dating I was still in my teens. He would make bizarre comments about feminism. Like he would say that all feminist women lie about rape and that all lesbians hate men. I thought these comments were strange but I ignored them because I was young and dumb (still a teenager) and he treated me extremely well. He has told me that he is republican and we live in a deep red state so I grew up republican too but my views shifted as I got older and I am no longer a republican. He has said bizarre things about men and women. He will complain about how women have it easy and men have it so hard and it just gets on my nerves so bad. I saw some of the stuff he was watching online and it was bad. Most of it was angry misogynistic content that he was watching constantly at work and on break. The man in the video was saying that men could collectively take women’s rights away and put them back in the house. He was also saying that promiscuous women cause the falls of civilizations. He had these videos liked and saved all over his tv.

I cried when I found out the kind of stuff he was watching because I was madly in love with him. I asked him about it and he got super defensive and said well women on the internet hate men too. I was like okay but why are you changing the subject and he cried and was like well if you think I’m a pos then just dump me.

He told me that he watches these videos because he is a conservative with traditional values and that he believes in gender roles and that it’s not sexist because he thinks men should be gentlemen and open the door for women and protect them but that’s just not the theme I saw in those videos. My bf also admitted to knowing what mgtow is but he doesn’t agree with it and that those guys are just virgins who can’t get laid so they are mad. A few years later he started getting really into politics and making it his whole personality like the reactionary angry types of politics and he make it his whole personality to hate on liberals and left leaning people and he is constantly online arguing with people every day and venting to me about it and I want to staple my ears shut.

He will bring up trans people and gay people all the time as well as onlyfans girls to complain about them. He used to be obsessed with onlyfans girls and how they are ruining society but he had no judgment for the men who create the demand for pornography. It makes me super uncomfortable and I am planning on leaving. He has gotten really controlling aswell and controls my clothes and is super jealous and possessive for no reason. And he will demand that I follow him and be submissive or he will leave. I am mentally preparing myself to leave him I tried to break up with him 2 months ago but he convinced me not to leave and I couldn’t do it.