Getting close to the end of a divorce and scared of raising my daughter alone. My ex initially said she was open to co-parenting and being in the same space to raise our daughter but as the divorce has gone on over the last 7 months she's grown colder and more distant.

I go to therapy, am on medications, go to support groups, started a support group, made friend groups in a new city, cut out porn, exercise, read, never put my emotions on my ex, got sober from weed and cut alcohol to only social outings, do everything her way the moment she request it as any thing I request is met with a "no", and she just grows further away.

I'm trying to accept that this will likely be more like parallel parenting not co-parenting as my ex has seemingly worked hard to cut every sign of me out of her life.

I'm scared of raising my daughter alone half the time. Of having no relationship with my ex. And al I hear is her saying "consequences of your actions" in my head and how I ruined her life.

I'm scared to do this alone. I'm scared I won't be enough for my daughter. I'm scared I'll screw her up. I'm scared she'll hate me as she gets older. I'm scared of how she cries at hand overs. She cried so hard today and I feel so sad she's going through this at 2 years old. I would do anything to change this but nothing I do matters to my ex.

I know it's normal for a 2 year old to cry but it's not normal for her to lose one of her parents every two days. To live two seperate loves. God's I've made horrible mistakes but I've done so much to try to improve.

She stated so much at the beginning and I felt like there was possibly a chance she wouldn't leave, or at least we could maintain a friendship or coparent in the same space. She met me once for coffee and that was pretty much it. All over email. Not even a phone conversation. Now she clearly doesn't care anymore and I would still do anything to protect my daughter from this... But it's not my choice.

I'm scared of every moment and all the negative emotions I feel every day. I tried so much to be a joy to others in this life and I'm left with a memory of hurting the one person that loved me the most.

I'm just scared for my daughter. This life is so hard at times and I've generally hated my path. I've done everything I can to change it and I'm at my lowest. All the hobbies, healthy activities, sobriety don't make me happy. My wife and daughter did. I already ruined one now I'm scared I'll ruin my relationship with my daughter too. I don't know what I'm doing and I'm just afraid of hurting more people.

My ex hates me and hates herself for ever being with me no matter what I do. I hope my daughter doesn't end up hating me too...

Just at a low point with this all but I look forward to my daughter waking up and her amazing laughs.