5'10" 245 39 waist 18.5 neck 19% BF

Bench 315 squat 420 dead 465 press 193

Lots of gold here. I am not sure how exactly to take this. I would like to know what the more experienced members think. Am I on the right path or am I going Rambo.

I plan to respond with some comfort in person. I need to own my shit better because I have been leaving some stuff undone. Need to stfu more she has overheard me giving rp type advice to single friends I think its beta as fuck to check out chicks overtly need to be more disciplined when it comes to the female form.

What do you think?

Here is the text I have not replied.

"Tikitheman, I love you so much more then words could say you truely are my best friend, my lover, my rock you are so amazing,talented,smart,funny and extremely sexy. I've been worrying alot lately you used to be so sweet and would give effort I'm not sure what's going on with you lately you don't do half the stuff you used to do and lately it's all about you or when it's convenient for you and I can't help but feel as if this is who you are now you used to write me love letters and used to say you love me without me saying it first and lately you don't even say it back you don't text me in the morning or just throughout the day just to see how I am like you used to your always asking me how much I love you but don't do it in return and lately I feel as if you only want me around for sex. You choose to go to the gym instead of seeing me and not even telling me so I was thinking you were going straight home to the kids. This morning you woke me up to give you your shot not to see me before you had to leave you didn't say I love you before you walked out the door if you don't want to be here then why play games with me and try to hurt me I am doing the best I can right now for our family and I know you think our house is gross but you barley want to help. I'm hurting really bad right now and am worried cause I don't know what's going on with you right now and you won't talk to me. I just don't know why and when you decided to become an asshole guy who only cares about himself and checks out every woman he can while sitting next to his wife or giving people advise that is so wrong as a married man just by the way you talk and act makes me feel as if that's how you want to be. Every time we go out you get buzzed and hang out with everyone but me of course besides dancing But you almost remind me of that guy I used to help get laid and talked to about chicks. You used to want to make me happy it was us against the world and right now I don't feel like I am apart of your world other then when it's convenient for you. You don't even call me unless I call you first I would really like to know what's going on I was looking through our text and I tell you I love you multiple times and you don't say it once it's so sad. I love you so so much and just want to spend my life with you."