(FR) Don't be ashamed of wanting sex

The other night, I had an ex come over "to have a drink" because she said she wanted to kick my ass at Mario Kart. (I have a N64 and we used to play it together every once in a while and make bets). Well, the reason that she is my ex is because she demanded commitment from me but after time, she would make me feel bad for wanting sex from her and when I did get it, it would be mundane vanilla sex. So, I nexted her and and went no contact.

Anywho, she text me and ask me if I had any vodka because she wanted to make us some drinks with sweet green tea. Kinda of like a "Hard Tea" drink. I told her "yes" and she said she would be over at 8. So, I get my place cleaned up and I shower. 8pm rolls around and she text me for my gate code. I tell her, thinking she is at the gate. Well 8:15 rolls around, then 8:30 and she finally shows up around 9pm. I didn't have anything planned that night because it was a work night but I found it rude and a red flag. Did I text her or call her wondering where she was at? Nope. It did bother me because I hate late people. But I wasn't going to let it show.

After she gets there, I get the "Sorry, I'm late" BS. I play it off and say "Oh come on. You can come up with something better than that. At least make up an action story like ninjas or something attacked you." She laughs. I tell her the vodka is in the freezer and to make mine slightly strong and go back to watching TV and ignoring her.

The whole time she is making me a drink, she is trying to get me to have a conversation with her about some gossip or something. If she was talking about someone, I just kept saying "Shhh Tom Cruise riding a motorcycle and blowing shit up is on" (Was watching Mission Impossible 2 where there is a hott black chick in it. My ex is black as well). Well, when she came back to sit down with my drink, she brought up the woman in the film and told me her name and that she was super pretty. I said "Yeah. I love her natural hair."

If you haven't ever had a black plate, then you will not know how important their hair is to them. Their hair is their number 1 insecure weakness they have. My ex has nice hair but straightens it constantly. So, when I made the hair comment, she immediately starts to qualify herself to me about how she has a hair team on set and it takes her (my ex) hours to do her hair to make it look this good.

I recommend men do this. Women are insecure so exploit it and make them qualify themselves to you instead of you qualifying yourself to them. I actually think there have been posts on here about that.

So, after a while, we are a little tipsy and we start playing Mario Kart. I am winning most of the time and she is very competitive and tries to make me mess up by hitting my controller or grabbing my junk. And one time, she was beating me at the game and I said "Oh you're a dirty little slut" when she hit me with a turtle shell. She responded with "I am a dirty slut and you love it." After the game, I escalate and start kissing her and going for her clothes. I undo her bra and drop my pants. She starts sucking my dick and after a couple minutes, I go for her pants.

Then, comes the LMR of "I'm sorry. I can't do this because I'm not a slut and you're not my boyfriend." I respond with "Ok" and keep kissing her and unbuttoning her pants. Finally, she kinda pushes me off and says that she needs to go and starts redoing her bra and putting on her shoes.

I don't get mad or keep talking her into it. I simply say "OK I understand" and pull my pants up. She tries to start explaining herself and trying to make me feel bad for not being her boyfriend and not taking her out ever. I go for my phone and keep saying "OK" without even paying her attention. I start texting my friend about something he text me earlier on and I knew she would be thinking I was texting another girl.

Her: Lining up the next girl to come over? (She says this smartly)

Me: Yup (I say like it's no big deal)

Her: I can't believe you. You are such a dick.

Me: I'll walk you to your car so I can get my parking pass from you. (She had put my parking pass in my car after she arrived)

We get to her car and she hands me my pass all sassy like. She then lingers and I tell her to get home safe.

Her: I don't get you.

Me: I see

Her: So, you don't get any from me and now you go to the next girl.

Me: Yeah.

Her: That's gross.

Me: OK

Her: That's why you will never get married because you can't keep it in your pants.

Me: Listen. I am horny and want sex. We were having a good time and had a couple drinks and I wanted the night to end with you riding my face. I don't see what the big deal is. But I understand that you don't want to have sex with me so I invited one of my friends over who does. So, I hope you have a good night and get home safe.

Her: She won't be as good as me.

Me: Debatable

Her: Oh yeah....bet she can't suck your dick like me. (She then pulls my pants down in the front and starts sucking my dick while she is sitting in the car and I am standing in the open door.) (Swear to God this happened)

Me: You dirty fucking slut. (I grab the back of her head and slightly force it deeper on my dick)

After a minute, I grab her hand and lead her inside to where we had sex for a couple hours with water breaks included. We did everything from missionary to anal even though she has expressed that she doesn't like anal to me many times. But I wanted to do it and she submitted.

Gents, this goes to show you that I was not ashamed to let her know that she can be replaced and I want what I want. I gave her some light commitment by letting her come over and have a few drinks and spent some time on her. But if she doesn't want to have sex then I will move on without getting upset and line up the next chick. In this case, I bluffed her and was texting my guy friend. So, essentially, I was faking it until I make it.

Don't let a woman make you feel ashamed for wanting sex. You deserve sex because the only types of guys in this forum are guys that want to better themselves constantly. Always keep a good attitude and don't take anything other than business serious. Always have an abundance mentality when it comes to women. Life is too short to let a damn women upset you.

EDIT:

One thing that I didn't mention was that when we dated, I hadn't swallowed the Red Pill fully yet. I was still very emotional when dating her and would get upset when I wouldn't get my way. Now, I lift heavy 5 days a week. I have put on 35lbs from maintaining a good diet. (Was 143lbs when we dated) I already had a good career in Computer Systems. And I have made new friends from the gym that I hang out with on the regular. Another big help with improving myself is doing what RSD preaches and actually go out on the town. Go talk to women. Approach if a woman makes eye contact or double backs the eye contact. Improve your game.