I’ll try to keep this short as I’ll just be venting a bit. So long story short my wife and I are separated for 2 weeks now, I’ve posted before on here if you’d like some context. Since the separation we’ve met 2 times, once for me to get the rest of my stuff from the house and today we met so she could give me some small stuff I had forgotten. In these past two weeks I’m a fucking contradiction of emotions, I’m mostly angry, sad, I miss her, in some moments I’m glad that it’s over and in other a feeling of regret come over me, and thoughts of her being with another man drive me fucking crazy. I know I should move on, but coming back to my parents to live temporarily I feel like I’ve moved a 100 steps back. The only place I feel happy is the gym, happy is a bit strong, but it’s the only place I feel like I can use all this shit to push forward. When I’m alone or with friends I’m glad it’s fucking over, but when I get alone the feeling of sadness and anger comes over me and all the progress towards moving on goes out of the window. When we met the two times in my head I think I’d like to get back together, but after that when the moment passes I feel empty. The divorce settlement is not an issue as we don’t have kids and any real estate. The fucked up thing is we were planning to start trying for kids this spring, but now the idea of family and kids is revolting. So thanks for listening guys and good luck to all of you.