It fucking sucks. Hearing stories about guys being screwed up, reading Esther Vilar, and being driven by sexual pulsion since i'm in my early 20s while feeling disgust and anger towards those emotionless creatures called women is unbearable. How did u go through all this? Idk what to do. I'm just so angry I think I'm even hating my own mom. Even if she's been a good person to me and supported me A LOT, I still feel that anger just because of her gender. It makes me sick, depressed, angry....