This is my first post here. To give some background I am a 24 yr old male virgin with basically no success with women. I've had one gf, but that was an anomaly and she forced a break up and basically never looked back due to my betaness. I know a lot about PUA, game, alpha male and the red pill. I also have a history of depression.

I hold sexual relationships with women (I am heterosexual) to be of high importance for my enjoyment of life. I believe that my lack of success in this domain is a big part of my aforementioned depression. This would be fine except for the fact that I am, according to the labels, a beta if not omega. I pretty stay in my house all day playing video games.

While I do want to accomplish things in the world I do not want to go against my moral code or not be myself and that includes very much being alpha. I view the way that alphas act to be kind of disgusting honestly. The tricks, tips and mindset to be generally highly immoral and very uncaring. Alphas are indifferent, aloof, selfish and basically everything wrong in this world imo. Just because they are socially desirable doesn't change that; In fact, it speaks even louder to the disgust of the overall human race. In my eyes, it makes the world a definite worser place. The problem is, according to what I read, that it just works due to female nature. And therein lies the crux of the problem. If it is true that female nature responds to alphaness (and I use their lack of response to my betaness as a inverse proof of it) then there is really no way I can really succeed with women at my current self which I don't want to change. Given that this is a great contributor of my happiness, I expect that I will remain just as unhappy all my life and thus should commit suicide as a way of maintaining my morals and also not experiencing my pain.

Another thought that crosses my mind is about the society in general. Once more, if all of the alphaness is the way to attract women then this means that the very mechanism for selecting the genes for the future is corrupted in opposition to my morals and ideals. This means that generation after generation will be implanted with the genes that make alphaness desirable and natural. Thus people like me die out, people who are alpha thrive and the world becomes a more pro alpha place. Thus from from a very macro scale my kin, my brothers in mind and heart, are screwed. The things I find to be desirable and admirable in the "soul" are dying. This to me is a darwainistic suicide already.

Thus, I ask here: Given what I have said, is the only solution for me suicide. Remember I view death as preferable to becoming alpha and preferable to a life without women so if you are tempted to answer with "just be alpha" or "just accept beta results" please refrain.

Edit: I truly did not expect so many responses. I just want you all to know that I have been reading and considering everything. I will respond to most of you, but it may take me a while. Just know that I am thankful for the advice and it's not being wasted.