It was pretty odd. I normally don’t let girl’s words get to my head (I’ve been called plenty of insults, primarily fuckboy, by women who I pumped and dumped).

We just graduated, so last night was our final college hurrah. There was a social group on campus and I ran through most if not all the 7-8s.

I saw one in the bar last night who I picked up sophomore year.

She took me outside and we made out, but in between she’d take the opportunity to let me know how she felt. She said I fucked all the girls she knows, I played with all their feelings...a couple guys in the group wanted to swing at me (ha!), I shouldn’t make girls catch feelings and then leave, I’m a player, a fuckboy etc, and then boom...”also we think you’re a psycho.”

I guess it doesn’t matter because they all wanna fuck anyways. She had to take care of a friend but she let me know she has her apartment all summer if I wanna come over.

But tbh, hearing “psycho” in regards to my player antics was a little jarring. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not hurt, it’s just a term that made me reflect.

I think I’m ending things way too roughly. Maybe I relied too much on game that made me want girls to really like me, instead of like me just for sex. In essence, I’d play a game where I actually wanted them to catch feelings and then I’d leave once I smashed for a few months. I sought the validation of them liking me. I had plenty of ONS, but in order to make it a long term thing I’d go slightly boyfriend-material to make them like me.

It does sound pretty psycho when I write it out.

I just finished college, so I wanna get a handle on this. Any advice, or just general comments? It’s appreciated. I think I’d approached gaming wrong this whole time.