As the title suggests I am said broken man. As a 24 year old Kissless, dateless virgin;Years of sexual frustration,rejection and unrequited desire has hollowed out my heart. Every waking moment I physically feel the terrible emptiness within my heart threatening to swallow me whole. The daily Melancholy is crushing my soul but I wasn't always like this. I was A bright, energetic kid filled with optimism for the world and my future. This all came crashing down when puberty hit and I started feeling attracted to girls. One day in the 6th grade I took it upon myself to walk right up to my Crush's table with all her friends and just take a seat next to them. I chatted her up for a bit;expressing how I found her beautiful and that I wanted to take her out on A date. She delightfully accepted and I was over the moon. How different my life would have been had what came next not come to pass. In short;She sent one of her friends over to to my classroom after lunch to tell me that she changed her mind about the date. I was devastated and quickly found myself the target of bullying. The bullying I received in middle school was particularly emasculating. This blonde-haired pretty boy,though shorter than me;had many of the girls in the grade wrapped around his finger. He rallied these girls against me in A series public humiliations. He would dare one of the girls to hug me,another to twerk on me. All the while I was being mocked for my difficulties with girls and each subsequent Attempt at romance on my part just ended in rejection and more public mockery.An ever-increasing and overwhelming sense of futility took over my psyche and by the end of my time in middle school;my confidence and self-esteem had been totally assassinated. My high school years went by like A flash as I was A shell of my former self and I've never fully recovered from it all these years later. Not even military service could get me over the hop with girls and my confidence. Im just searching for any advice on where to start and building up inner game from literal shambles.