On our first date I told him I’m just looking to find a connection, not sleep with anyone. I said if he’s not cool with that then he doesn’t have to keep seeing me.

We grow closer, and are really getting to know each other. The thing is I’m very closed off, I’m still open but maybe I’m too emotionally unavailable lately and give off that sort of vibe.

He then tells me he’s going on a road trip to visit a friend, a girl. I asked if he was hoping to get something out of it and he said yes. So yeah men ain’t shit, none are patient enough to actually wait for sex.

You are worth less to them if you fuck them and even more-so if you don’t. Could this be due to my emotional unavailability? I don’t want to blame myself here but I’m worried I’m too closed off, scaring potential partners away. I don’t know anymore. Nothing really makes a difference. I just expect this shit now and have given up completely.