My girlfriend has a lot of narcisstic traits, she admitted to not feeling empathy in her life, Love or care for anyone. She cares only about praise and social status. Even though she has no empathy, she has a whole lot of cognitive empathy, meaning she understands people really well.

I want to talk about what I find intruging about her from a redpill perspective. She may be narcisstic but not in a way redpill presents women to be. She is a patriarch, she cares about being seen as competent, smart, funny. She has a lot of accountability, unlike redpill believes about people. She is immoral and she is narcisstic but she doesn´t deny it. She´s like "Well, obviously you´re a mess, I ruined your life." and I´m like "Nahh, it´s not your fault." or she says "I know I´m not giving you enough attention but please don´t blackmail me, I got a lot on my plate."

She takes accountability for every action she makes, bad and Good and I admire that about her so much. She insults me on daily basis but when I ask her about it, she doesn´t think she´s justified in it "Well obviously you have low self-esteem, I tell you you´re stupid all the time.". She understands that the things she does are wrong for numerous of reasons, she still does them anyway. But... that´s why I´m with her. Ironically, she´s the only one who isn´t self-righteous enough to think she´s right to insult me.

She doesn´t believe in morality. She thinks right and wrong doesn´t exist. She doesn´t grasp the concept quite well, she thinks it´s just societal constructs. And that´s what I like about her, at least she isn´t trying to justify her s*itty behavior. At worst she says it´s morally grey, or she thinks that it´s wrong based on how society would view it.

And one particular moment hit me hard. When she came from school and she was depressed because not enough people reacted to her text messages. She cares a lot about her reputation and she believes it´s very fragile, so even tiniest signals that she´s loosing grasp on her popularity can make her feel despair. So she comes home and she starts breaking down, she says "What´s the point ? No matter how hard I try, if I stop, I will loose it all." she´s describing how she´s working hard to keep everyone engaged, to keep attention to herself, to entertain and make everyone laugh but how sometimes it just doesn´t go according to plan and all of a sudden it seems like none cares about her again, how she has to keep trying otherwise she looses everything. And I say "Well, that´s what happens when you base your self-worth on external matters." and she breaks down crying "But there´s nothing else !" She was depressed for over two weeks that time. And often she feels s*icidal if she doesn´t get praise and attention.

It reminded me a lot of patriarchal struggles. How some men say that once they show vulnerability, they loose. And she feels a lot like that.

The irony is, she´s the smartest person I´ve ever met, she´s even the most empathetic person I´ve met, she is one of a kind. Yet she says she feels empty on the inside. She doesn´t know who she is, she doesn´t like anything, she´s not interested in anything, everything is short term. The only thing that motivates her is praise and attention, she can´t learn new things unless she somehow associates them with herself or unless there´s a reward of praise and attention for it.

People called her a female Andrew Tate based on her behavior. What I admire about her is that she is dominant. That´s kind of how I see her being a narcisst, she can´t take rejection very well. She asks me to do something and I refuse and she goes into this state where she just keeps asking me to do it and pushing me, pinching me or pulling my hair and teasing me for even as long as 30 minutes because she seems to find it hard to cope with not having her way. She´s asexual, mostly. She has a crippling fear of pregnancy so she doesn´t want to have sex. But we do some other things sometimes and in those cases she actually likes me to be dominant, she says "As long as none sees it, it doesn´t matter." She cares about being percieved as dominant by society. She wants to pay for my meal when we go out. She doesn´t want me to pay for her, she gets really mad if I try. She wants to be the provider. She´s very generous, too. She says that´s her top positive trait.

But even though she is dominant, she doesn´t fear her feminine side. She´s still very Cute.

What I like about her is that she doesn´t mind if I cry. She understands people and social dynamics really well, so she doesn´t respect "status" that much. She treats it as a one big game of deceit. She makes people think that she cares about them and she tells them what they want to hear and she sees them fall for it. She doesn´t loose respect for me crying because she doesn´t respect anyone. I remember one time I was crying and I said I admire her for not judging me and she said "That´s ridiculous, of course you can cry, you´re human. Just make sure none sees you with me like this."

This is why I like her, she sees this whole "status" thing as a means to an end. She doesn´t morally justify it. She tells people what they wanna hear.

She isn´t sadistic. She doesn´t want to see people suffer. Although she finds it amusing. She only cares about herself and she wants to empower herself. That´s what I like about her.

She isn´t hypergamous. She says that if her partner had a higher status than her he wouldn´t survive it.

She´s very inspiring, ironically, her selfish desire for praise and attention causes her to be a better and a more self-aware person than most people even though she doesn´t care about anyone. She´s just trying to survive in a world of cruel and judgemental people and that´s why I like her. She´s very generous and she taught me fluid English in a span of one year.