I'm 25 years old and still a virgin. Not because I don't want intimacy or love, but because I honestly have no idea how to even begin. I grew up in a difficult environment—without a father, as he was abusive toward my mother, which left deep emotional scars. As a child, I carried a burden no child should ever bear, and it affected every part of my life. I developed mental health issues, and my self-esteem was almost nonexistent.

In high school, I was always only around other guys. I never had a girlfriend—not even a female friend. In college, I kept to myself. I wasn't social, and even when a girl showed interest, I pushed her away out of fear. So, I remained a virgin.

Some time ago, I even tried having sex with a prostitute because I thought it would help me break the ice. But it did the exact opposite—I felt even more empty and lost afterward. I still feel like a virgin because the experience didn’t mean anything emotionally.

Three months ago, I finally went on a few real dates. One of them even ended in a kiss. I felt a glimmer of hope, but all four women eventually lost interest and stopped talking to me.one girl even said that i can not handle girls. I don’t know how to flirt over text; I don’t have any “text game.” or how to talk to girls. I often wonder if I’ve missed my window—back in college, when people were meeting each other in clubs, parties, and social groups.

Now I feel like I’m trapped in a bubble. I don’t know where to even meet women anymore, besides Tinder—and I haven’t had much luck there either. Sometimes I ask myself: is there still hope for me? I want relationship or hookup.