At first I wonderd when mine will be, then I just stopped thinking about it and went about my stuff. I started lifting, reading the sidebar and bar a few hiccups I swallowed the pill.

December was a particular good month. Holiday, sex and fun. Coming from a Deadbedroom I was living the improvement in real time. Sex was so good, we tried things (and places) we have never done before, and she was willing and eager. The good life.

Then in rolled January. We went back to our routines, kids in school, holidays over and everything back to normal. I may have become a little complacent, maybe whatever, speculation to wonder what caused it, but all of a sudden there was a massive drop in sex.

Denial is a strong emotion. I couldn't believe Miss December turned into Miss January, just like that. I couldn't figure out what had changed. I stayed in this steady state of denial throughtout January and then early Feb I had enough. I was fed up.

She kept on saying "we need to talk", but when prompted would not want to, waiting for a better time. This really pissed me off, and gents, I must admit here she pulled me from my frame into hers, I initiated the talk.

Out it comes, I don't respect her. I only want her for sex. I don't care for her feelz. I just want to do my own thing.

I fought hard and managed to suppres the beta bitch still hiding in me. A calm settled over me.

I never explained why I need sex, just said I want sex from her. I not once claimed she owes me sex.

This arguement went on back and forth for a while, with goal posts shifting and attacks coming from other angles.

Now in the past, I would have bitched and moaned, and relented and said sorry for putting her through all this, but that I love her and that is why I want for us to have a perfect relationship.

I did not argue, I stayed calm and spoke the minimum. I just stated what I wanted out of our relationship, I did not try and convince her with logic and feelz, just stated what I want.

The end of the 'Talk'? Well deciding on the road ahead I stated there is no road ahead in my book. She never saw that one coming, her blue beta bitch ditching her, never!

So after that I chatted to my lawyer. Found out what paperwork he needs to put in a divorce application and so on. I have in the past found out most of what I wanted to know from him already.

So I am holding back on the paperwork, me and the wife had another chat. I will put off my decision to file for a few weeks while we work on things. She knows the paperwork is ready, she now knows that I am willing to walk, something she never believed I would do.

To me it was important to put divorce on the table. Not just as a scaring tactic, but to let her know that is where I am at. She never thought I would leave her and the kids.

I realise that I have put a boundry on the table, one that, if I don't enforce it will make me even a bigger pussy than I ever was. I have taken out a solution and must be willing to use it.

Without the tools of MRP I would not have been able to have a rational discusion about all of this, I would have blown my top and propably yelled at her like a whiney bitch, just to come back saying I am sorry.

The MRP tools gave me the courage to tell her, straight up in a calm and meusured tone, ' I don't need you, I choose to have you in my life, you can stay, or go. Makes no differance to me'

In some aspects I could have done better, but overall I didn't do badly, but I won't be celebrating a victory, there was none, just a guy stating what he wants from life.