Haven't posted here in a long time. I'll try to make this short.
Found MRP. Was in a bad place with wife and kids like most of you. Started lifting, reading and implementing the sidebar. Had some real success in the beginning, but the wife just couldn't take it the more I improved. It got to the point where she was so stressed with the situation that she decided she wanted to bail out. I honestly believe I could've been an MRP guru (was far from it) and it still wouldn't have been enough. My turn was definitely over and looking back there were so many red flags with her behaviour it should've been nuked much sooner.
So now I'm separated, in the divorce process and living in an empty house without my kids. It's a more peaceful place and the kids don't need to see a sparring match between parents every day.
But since the split I've backtracked, picked up old habits and not doing what needs to be done. I have the tools and knowledge, but finding it really fucking difficult to get back on the golden path. Is it acceptable to slip up for a short time to grieve over the corpse of my old family life? Or am I being a fucking pussy and need to man up and get the shit done that needs to be done?
Right now I know the path, but I'm not walking the path... I'm stumbling around drunk in the fucking bushes