Posted in OYS last week for first time but deleted due to opsec almost being compromised. Background is wife and I are 40 and been married for 8 years with 4 kids. Been lifting since October on 5/3/1 program. 195 BP, 275 SQ, 315 DL, 135 OHP—1RM. Dead bedrooM for three years.

Been spending more time at gym and out of the house. Recently went in and got my T levels checked. My total was 69 ng/dl. Made appointment with urologist to get T back up. When I made these appointments I didnt tell my wife. Day of urlogist appt I went to gym then dr. He took more blood samples and wanted to prescribe clomid if samples came back ok. Sample comes back the next day high for prolactin at 671. Dr calls my primary and immediately gets me into endocrinologist yesterday. At this point I tell my wife that my primary tested me for test levels and that prolactin came back high and I have to see endo for possible tumor on pituitary. Wife comes with and finds out I saw urologist about T also and asks why I needed to have my T levels checked in first place. I told her because of my breast tissue and erectile/libido issues. Shes immediately furious and with tears about why I didnt tell her. She considers it a lie by omission and that I must be cheating on her. I told her I didnt tell her because I didnt want her to rub it in my face or make fun of me for my erectile issues. She insists im cheating and that when I go to the gym Im really sneaking off to bang some thot. (Newsflash Im not). I completely lose all frame and DEER that Im just trying to improve myself so that she will find me attractive again. She still insists Im cheating.

Today while im at work she texts that I should stay some where else for awhile. We text for another hour about the stuff i mentioned above but all shes says is that i have to be cheating. I call her and ask her if she has decided to end the marriage or if she wants to go to counseling. She says she would consider counseling.

My frame is shit at this point. And this main event is happening alot sooner than I anticipated or was ready for. Any advice for when I go home tonight? I dont want to lose my marriage but that may just be fear of change. I know that even though i feel weak and want to throw myself at her mercy that instead i should show strength. Any help would be appreciated because I know Ive been a huge faggot.