So, this guy marries this woman. She's intelligent. Got a scholarship to Cincinnati college and got an art degree. He went to Rose Poly-technical Institute. She came from dirt poor stock. Father was a coal miner and mother was a whore. Seriously, her mom was a real prostitute. 6 kids and none of them are really sure who their father is.

But he doesn't care. He's a white knight. He "rescues" her. Long after the relationship ended that's how he described it. Even when she divorced him he bought her a car, paid her rent, even gave her child support on the 4 days a month she got visitation!

But I'm jumping ahead.

They had 4 kids. Three daughters and a son. The second daughter died of SIDS. Maybe all of them are his kids. No one knows for sure. The boy (the youngest) is most likely his. They look like a mirror image (which is lucky).

He buys a house, works his butt off to support her. Comes home and fixes cars in the garage for extra money. Manages to save money and is the quintessential Beta Bucks provider male.

She's a whore like her mom. She complains bitterly that he doesn't give her enough money. She takes out credit cards in his name and maxes them out and uses the family budget to pay the minimum.

Meanwhile, she's banging the AF down the road. He's cultured, tall, chiseled jaw, nice body, and free. He doesn't want any kids, but he likes banging this spinner milf.

Well her boy is 3 and she's had enough so she just up and leaves all the kids in the house and goes to live with her AF. She's thrilled and no fucks are given about abandoning her kids. She's getting that alpha dick now.

The Beta Bucks comes home to find all his kids alone in the house and realizes that she's left him. He had already caught her cheating and it's no surprise really.

They divorce and just when the Family Court is going to decide to give the kids to BB she suddenly has a change of heart. Well, actually, her AF dumps her because he's tired of her shit. So now she desperately wants the kids, but the court talks to the oldest daughter and she amazingly and sensibly tells him that she wants to be with Beta Bucks.

And they lived happily ever after, right?

No. Beta Bucks hasn't learned his lesson yet. So he marries a big fat Yankee milf with an abusive ex-husband for 4 children. She hates the ex-wife and the feeling is mutual. Since they can't get at each other they use the 3 children as proxies for their back and forth.

The boy, defenseless at 3 goes from a relatively peaceful and safe environment to one that is abusive, violent, or neglectful. Essentially, he lives in a house full of people who either want nothing to do with him (his sisters) or take great personal pleasure in making him miserable (3 much older step-brothers) or both (step-mother). He's beaten, neglected, emotional abused, and sodomized. The father, now toiling away to support 7 kids (4 of whom aren't his) takes his frustration out on his young son whenever he acts out against the abuse of his new "family" and instead of wondering why his behavior has changed so profoundly, just beats him with his belt until his arm gets tired.

The step-mother sometimes lavishes him with affection (before he leaves for visitation) and then ignores him for days as if he's a ghost standing in front of her (when he returns from his mothers). She's petty, viscous, violent, and turns a blind eye to the violence perpetrated by her sons. She even buys them boxing gloves so that when the little boy is forced to fight the older boys won't leave visible bruises on his face and body.

The boy grows up alone in a house full of people. He hides in his room, has no friends, is bullied in school. When he's suspended for fighting back against bullies he's punished at home as well. When his geometry teacher in high school tells him in front of the class that he's a "mistake of birth control and your mother used drugs when you were in her womb" the school does nothing and the step-mother says, "What do you want me to do about it."

At one point the boy gets yelled at by his parents and instead of listening to him they just don't care. In frustration and despair he goes upstairs and gets a hunting knife and presses it hard against his wrist and pulls it across his flesh just as his father storms into the room. The father says, "Oh great!" and walks out. For some reason the knife wasn't sharp enough to cut the boy and the father just figured he was trying to get attention. He never said another word about it to his son after that. No fucks were given that day.

The boy learns no great lessons from his father. He only knows how to work like a dog and be treated like one. He tries to learn how to be a man and how to be loved by listening to the things women say they want from men. This ends horribly for him and despite a few early successes as a boy, his later failures impoverish him and cascade into decades of failures without love or companionship.

Even though he finally manage to put himself through college at age 27, he ultimately ended up driving a truck over-the-road. His days will filled with solitude, video games, and loneliness.

After getting his first trucking job he offered to buy his dear mother a car for Mother's Day. He lives in his truck and has no expenses or home of his own. Yet, he offers to make a sizable down payment and half the monthly payment for his mother. Because he's afraid of debt he sends her his whole paycheck month after month with the instructions to use the extra to pay down the principle so they can clear the loan.

After a year of working and traveling and rarely coming home he asks his mother how much is left on the loan. It was only 12,000 dollars and she says they still own about 11,000 dollars. Turns out she had been spending the money on clothes and furniture and had only been making the minimum payments.

She explained herself by saying, "Well I thought you gave that money to me to spend as I wanted." She had no regret nor inkling that what she had done was wrong or a betrayal. It was simply her right to do so.

Why am I telling you this story?

  1. This is a true story.
  2. This is my story.
  3. I'm 44 now

I have no idea if I can change. I'm pretty fucked up and I'm a long way from even being attracted to most women at this point. Maybe I can change and find some meaningful relationships or maybe I can just learn to function better. I'd be happy just having a friend or two to hang out with. I have only a few acquaintances and no close friends.

But don't worry about me. I didn't write this for you to pity me.

I wrote this as a cautionary tale for each of you who maybe haven't taken the red pill or who have taken but haven't fully committed.

Follow the RP. Make the change. If you don't you could end up just like my BB father. You could end up like the omega I was (and in many ways still am). Although, I delude myself into thinking I'm Zeta.

It's either make the right decisions and get what you want and by default what some woman really needs and what your kids need, or you give up and and stay beta and create a loser son and greedy materialistic harpy daughters who find their own BB and leach off him for years while complaining bitterly about what a loser he is.

But whatever you do: don't bang married women. Make those bitches pay for their decisions. You aren't just fucking them. You are fucking their kids and the man who is doing his best even if it isn't always right. She deserves to have to live with her choice.

Don't be that AF who wrecks the marriage and then walks away after everything is in shambles.

As for my mother, she hates men, but even when I was 17 she was still willing to bang that AF that she left my father for.

She had been pumped and dumped by a hundred guys since him, but when he came back into her life she was putty in his hands again.

Now she's a bitter old hag in her '70's and cleaning houses for rich people. Her daughters live in different states and I haven't seen or talked to her in 11 years.

She'll die poor and alone. Which is what she deserves.

But the damage she has done and that my father did not have the wisdom to prevent will live on.

Don't be like him and you won't make a son like me who hates women.