Been married almost 13 yrs, together for 16. Have a 7 yr old son. The past years have been rocky. Think we both spent to much time with our son and have lost us. I'm not perfect, but she seems to be. I've heard sorry maybe twice in the 13 yrs. Here recently she has been hanging out with friends. No big deal. Out of 5 friends only one is married. The others are divorced or had kids with no marriage.

We split last year and managed to reconcile, well so I thought. Was told it's been over for years WTF. I worked my ass off to make things right. Therapy has done wonders for myself confidence. I now am comfortable with my anxiety and can now head it off. We have agreed on me moving out (she will be buying me out). 50/50 custody till we figure out the divorce process. Have to separated for 1 year in VA.

She has retained a lawyer and I will be meeting with one this Friday. Everything seems so easy so far. I want nothing with what she has earned (401k) nor mine. We both agree to remain friends (so far).

I just feel like I've hit a brick wall. I have lost my friend, and most of my heart. Our son is my life, and will do anything for him.

Sorry for being all over the place. Shit hurts...