I was doing ok, then everything fell apart. I lost my house, some friends, and through legal fees and bullshit have been financially tapped out. I have .52 in my account right now after paying my lawyer.

I had a great career and 6 months ago thought I had everything I ever wanted, I’m a high level athlete and had to give that all up for now. The only thing I have left is my dog. I can’t help feeling like I’m always waiting for the next bad thing to happen, I have no desire to get up and do anything anymore and that’s so unlike me, I’ve always been very disciplined about my work, nutrition, training, everything, and now nothing matters. I don’t want to start all over. I don’t want to move back to my home state, I want my life back, not even my relationship, just my life. Some days I can’t even get up. My friends and family are all so worried about me.