I remember last year when I was still praying for reconciliation. During the only conversation we had about things (where she didn’t threaten lawyers) she said something like “I just don’t have anything to give to a romantic relationship right now.”

I don’t know why. But that played in my head again today and I realized something.

She never had anything to give to a romantic relation to even begin with.

If I had only realized the type of person she actually was I could have saved myself a lot of grief.

I would do it all again just to have the kids. And I did love her…but she didn’t enter into the relationship in good faith.

She never thought she was at fault for anything and all the issues in our marriage were my fault.

Never again.

I’m honest about my flaws, I had and still have many. But I will never allow another person to gaslight me that way again.

People without the ability to self reflect and take responsibility are a non-starter for me now.