I dont even know what to think right now

My STBXW, basically left me for a co worker 6 weeks ago.. And there's nothing I can do about that..fine. She doesn't wanna work on marriage...fine. She doesn't wanna take any physical memories..fine, I guess. She basically threw away her baby stuff..ok this is odd.

But, I'll just get to the point..she using weed in late 2019, at first I was like..ok I'll deal with that. It would be pretty hypocritical of me since I liked beer at the time. I quit December 7th 2020. Every fucking night since exactly whenever in 2019 she got high and secluded herself on a porch watched tiktok or whatever and got high..got pissy if she had to come out. Her pissiness got worse over time and really bad in late 22-early 23..

She also had a "hobby" of crafting out there..I grew resentful of that since she would stay in there all night..

Anyway, we had a huge blow up the other day when she was moving out and I brought up the weed..and her kid found out..she says she's been off of it since then..whatever.

My thoughts are..she's been using this weed as a distraction and her hobby as a distraction for years...

And now..tonight I find a gigantic pile of fucking weed on the porch, that I have to clean up.. I dont know what to do with this..I can't use it..that would be seriously fucking stupid..as am DOT regulated..

I'm pissed. Confused. Tired. Why the fuck..i hate weed and what it did to her..

How am I supposed to clean "this shit" up? I cant transport it..no freaking way.