I never thought I would come to the point of posting this, but I'm officially on the verge of divorce from my once very loving and kind husband due to RP.

I'm not sure where to start as far as describing his complete descent into it, so I'll just focus on the present.

Overall I'm wondering if divorce is an overreaction to this. He thinks we can have a healthy marriage with him being RP but I've peeked over at r/marriedredpill. I'm 100% uninterested in being a field report over there.

I've done everything I can think of to pull him away from this rabbit hole, but nothing works and the pain just gets deeper hearing the way he talks to me now, the way he questions my value and worth to him (I'm now disposable according to him), the RP terminology that now laces our conversations, and all the obvious manipulation tactics he tries to pull.

I really don't want to push these papers but this chaos has been going on for two years now. When I joined this sub I felt there was hope for him based on seeing others who recovered but going through it is an entirely different thing.

It literally feels like my body, mind,and life have been blown into pieces. It feels so silly discussing RP and what has happened with my attorney. Like seriously? I'm about to lose my marriage to this? It's surreal but I know it's not. I'm ashamed to tell others the foul things my husband has said to me these past 2 years; all of it replays in my mind each time I look at him and try to make another attempt at reconciliation.