As if now when I look at men and consider them as a potential romantic partner I can't help but think "he probably watches some form of degenerate porn" and my attraction to them instantly goes down. I've also found myself nitpicking men. If I actually like them, I look for reasons why I shouldn't like them then I ultimately end up distancing myself. This is probably for the better because a woman's intuition is almost always right.

But it kinda sucks. I know that most men are actual trash heaps that don't deserve anything. I can't help but feel repulsed when being around them because I know how they are. They give themselves away all the time online. Their disgusting attitudes towards women and children and their ways living almost makes me want to be celibate forever. And I honestly think I would be okay with that.

I think my dream now is to own multiple businesses and if I become rich donate my life to humanitarian work , especially work that regards the help and safety for women and children.